[ destiny number: 5 ✧ life path number: 3 ✧ soul urge number: 3 ✧ personality number: 4 ✧ karmic lesson numbers: 4 & 8 ]

22/F/AUS - INFP - TYPE 4 ENNEAGRAM - MELANCHOLY TEMPERAMENT - [GEMINI STELLIUM] GEMINI SUN | AQUARIUS MOON | PISCES RISING
  

i'm thinking about..

cyberthon v .. godflesh .. gameboy color .. chaos theory .. symbolism
retrocomputing .. winamp .. early 2000s internet culture .. alan watts .. sensuality
asemic writing .. club penguin journey



my current favorites..

bands: godflesh / ministry / ggfh / filter / add n to (x) / xorcist / zheani / relative ash
albums: us & them - godflesh / eclipse - GGFH / twitch - ministry / damned souls - xorcist
movies: trainspotting / the virgin suicides / the messenger: the story of joan of arc
books: going postal - mark ames / the wisdom of insecurity - alan watts / person/planet - theodore roszak
muses: vali myers / christine chubbuck / valérie valère / julia butterfly hill
songs: basmati - gigandhi / one who sees all - michael idehall / darker emptier simpler - zheani / i am one - powwoww


some fun facts..

bianca devins had followed me on tumblr a few months before she was murdered in july 2019, i didn't realise until 2022.
i joined the TCC in 2016 when i was 14 years old (if that tells you anything).
the first band i ever saw live was Filter.
amberlynn reid has my name written in a journal somewhere




1. Full name: [REDACTED]
2. Nicknames: rai / sunless / sToRm
3. Birthplace: -------, ---
4. Birthday: 30/05/2002
5. Where Do You Live Now?: 2 hours from birthplace
6. Parent(s): ----- & -----
7. Sibling(s): 2 brothers and 1 sister
8. Looks: 5'5, 105lbs, dark blonde hair, one blue eye one green eye
9. Favorite Animal(s): owls, pigeons, foxes, cats
10. Favorite TV Show(s): daria, downtown, seinfeld, beavis & butthead, south park, breaking bad
11. Favorite Kind(s) Of Music: triphop, industrial, alternative rock, electronic, metal
12. Favorite Movie(s): trainspotting, the messenger: the story of joan of arc, the matrix, wolf creek, bowling for columbine
13. School: graduated in 2022
14. Future School: no
15. Future Job: no
16. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: [REDACTED]
17. Best Buds: my cat, R, L, L, D & Z.
18. Favorite Candy: marshmallows, maltesers, lollipops
19. Hobbies: writing, drawing, finding new music, reading, spiritual development, being in nature
20. Things You Collect: obsolete tech, vhs/cds/dvds/cassettes, books, 90's era items
21. Do You Have A Personal Phone Line: yes
22. Favorite Body Part Of The Opposite Sex?: hands
23. Any Tattoos And Where Or What?: one tiny stick n poke, very faded now, inner ankle from when i was 15 lol
24. Piercing(s) And Where?: used to have lobes but they've grown out
25. What Do You Sleep in?: underwear
26. Do you like Chain Letters: ones that aren't stupid
27. Best Advice: live and die in love, not fear. / do not fear death in any of it's forms, death comes only to renew.
28. Favorite Quotes: "-" (TBA)
29. Non-sport Activity You Enjoy: listening to music, drawing, journaling, dancing alone in my room
30. Dream Car: bmw 8 series e31
31. Favorite Thing To Do In Spring: eating berries, being outside and enjoying the newborn sun
32. What’s Your Bedtime: whenever i feel like it, sometimes 3am othertimes 11pm
33. Where Do You Shop?: thrift stores, ebay, depop
34. Coke or Pepsi: pepsi max
35. Favorite Thing(s) To Wear?: my ankh necklace, cardinal watch, my circuit pattern jacket, my pashmina scarves, fishnet/fingerless gloves
36. Favorite Subject(s) In School?: art and english
37. Favorite Color(s): purple, red, blue, black, brown
38. Favorite People To Talk To Online: luna, lindy, demyan & skorps
39. Root-Beer or Dr. Pepper?: dr pepper
40. Do You Shave?: yes
41. Favorite Vacation Spot(s): all mountains all forests all countrysides all over the world
42. Favorite Family Member(s): i love all of them unconditionally
43. Did You Eat Paint Chips When You Were a Kid?: i don't think i did lol
44. Favorite CD you own: orbital - halcyon (2006)
45. The ONE Person Who You Hate The Most: hatred is a useless emotion
46. Favorite Food(s): dumplings, fruits (berries the most), soups, pork buns
47. Who Is The Hottest Guy or Girl In The World?: the sun
48. What Is Your Favorite Salad Dressing?: probably french dressing
49. When You Die, Do You Wanna Be Buried or Burned Into Ashes?: natural burial, stick me raw in the earth so i can enrich it's soil
50. Do You Believe In Aliens?: yes
51. If You Had The Chance To Professionally Do Something, What would You Do?: author/writer
52. Things You Obsess Over: metaphysics, chaos theory, synchronicities, spiritual concepts
53. Favorite Day of the Week: thursday
54. A Teacher You Hate: only math teachers because i was incompetent at math lol
55. Favorite Disney Movie(s): the emperor's new groove, the incredibles
56. What Is Your Favorite Season?: spring
57. What Toppings Do You Like On Your Pizza?: pepperoni, mozzarella
58. Do You Like Your School Food Itself (As In The District Food): n/a lol
59. If You Could Live Anywhere, Where Would You Live?: in a forest or somewhere rural
60. Favorite Thing(s) To Do On Weekends: sit in my hammock, read, write
61. Favorite Thing(s) To Get Clean up: my bedroom, i hate when my room is messy
62. Favorite Magazine(s): old rolling stone, mad magazine, propaganda magazine
63. Favorite Flower(s): lavender, columbines, violets, clovers
64. Favorite Number(s): 8, 5, 3
65. Favorite Ice Cream flavor(s): cookies n cream
66. What Kind of Guys/Girls Are You Attracted to?: soft, dark, introspective, obsessive & mysterious
67. What’s Your Most Embarrassing Moment?: i never get embarassed B) (i tripped over once on new years eve in front of a bunch of people during the fireworks display and i stil think about it to this day and cringe)
68. If You Could Change One Thing About Yourself What Would It be?: my extreme anxiety disorder and subsequent isolation cope, my obsessiveness
69. Do You Eat Breakfast First Then Brush Your Teeth or Brush first then eat breakfast: brush first then eat
70. Favorite Time of Day: 4pm
71. Can A Guy and Girl Be Just “Best Friends?”: depending on the situation yes
72. Do You Ask The Girl / Guy Out Or Do You Wait For Them To Come To You?: i would wait, unless there are obvious signs of mutual feelings
73. Do You Mind Paying For Sex?: um no thanks
74. What’s The Most Important thing In Someone’s Personality: humour, compassion and psychopathic tendencies
75. Do you have a pager or cell phone?: wish i had a pager ): i have a samsung s10
76. Favorite Sport: never liked sports, but i don't mind state of origin
77. What Was the Best Gift You Ever Received?: every gift i've ever recieved from z lol
78. How Long Did This Letter Take You To Finish?: 30ish mins
79. What Did You Listen To While Completing It?: clean my wounds - corrosion of comformity
80. Are you or would you like to be married in the near future (next 5 years)?: no
81. Don’t u just hate how psychics never win the lottery?: fuck psychics + the lottery, both are scams

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