absence

i see you in throes of death
and in the highest planes of life

i see you in the candlelight, the stars
placed close but now beyond reach; ethereal

i see the echoes of you
inscriptions in spacetime; signed ‘L’

i see the snow absorb the pain
among the trees where fate had placed you

and there in which my sight sits
and there i beg to be blind

this endless pain instead be given
unto another life

grief is a forever feeling;
mine stained neptune blue

an agonizing absence obscures all i knew

the fall

stirring and swirling
spiralling inside these waves of forever
flush red with consciousness and die out with vengence
timeflow in and out, the cyclic breath of eternity
intertwined with the fabric of a distant shoreline
snow falls inside of the white dream

trails of light soar across an ethermeral sky
dust raining down from the firmament
flesh bifurcates in love and lust, desecrates in pandemonium
as time builds self builds cipher
the union of temporal identity codes ego; horizon on birth of the end

the conceptual limit creates boundaries
the mind's symbols; it's extremities
reaching outward and inward
inside and out
turns spectre of death into living entity
and existence into ancient curse

heavenly dust defiled to rubble
the sacred and profane fight the anthropromorphic war
a whole race of beings killing for more
dust obscures sight; obscures birthright
snow turns to sand, the sacred fire smothered
the dream meets death
death turns to meet the shoreline

personal redemption

meat puppet on barbwire string; performance in third density pandemonium
gun in the trenchcoat of my mind; fire at will
approaching the gates of corrosion; unfurling like a butterfly
wings beating like my bullets
multiplying genesis
living; bringing genesis
cascading degrees of a techno-fatality

timeofdeath/888

i crystalize in death / time crystalizes in me
eternal time rift / a permanent time-anomoly
death is a time machine / time-synthesis of cross-contaminated timelines
every being at it's threshold / death is the time-ritual
a witness to the assembly of a weapon
a splintering of self shattering the mirrored box matrix
an untime

the border of hopelessness and relief

a life i may not dream
a life i may not love
consciousness i may not possess
unless to benefit those above

existences converge fear and hate
each trapped in feelings of desperation
i learn to hide inside my own
plan; the final form sedation

i look into the blinding sun
it all seems to melt away
mercenary soul; killed in the battle
my vision will soon go grey

a world short on love is no world of mine
a life long lived is no life at all

coded search for truth

mind; cogs in the industrial machine
your hand caught if you come too close
rips flesh and mangles bones
divine weapon merging with the flame

upon the dreamscape eternality
backwards and forwards in time
strangling the singularity; tearing at it's throat

information upon the firmament
spurting from the cording vein
realities seeping into the layers
in my electrified holographic brain

while god is asleep

i let the world suck me dry
i let myself hang around
i let forever become eternity
and eternity become the next sentence

to be frightened of a world in disguise
under the guise of suffering and torment
i speak into the desolate nothingness
and nothing murmurs a silent reply

he tells me a truth
he tells me a lie
he points upward toward
the phantasmic wayward sky

i see nothing at first
as i always will
but the nothing soon takes meaning
and the meaning means nothing still

i let the world suck me dry
and god resides in nothing; shows me why
as above is always below
is just as wayward

and all i can do is cry

the never-ending hypercycle

a heavy soul with heavy arms
a hateful mind with wrathful ways
bloodsoaked room and a hallway of fear
amid the tears drowning nations

how could he do this?
how many bodies found?
was he in his right mind
as his shadow bit into the ground?

each day a new life
a new death
a new mass of sorrow
souls seeking rest
in the violence of tomorrow

voyeuristic anacrisis

i lay myself out for you
prurient corporeal display
abterminal gaze
innocence of an infantile fervour

slow and saccharine
look inside this painful world
stand witness to my aching being
elusivity on trial

soft virginal flesh
monument tearing at the seams
amerced eyes confined, always so close
yet so far

i can see right through you

natally tempera(mental)

cold black metal appendage
held against skin like a child with a teddybear
the final hours ascend
cold black air

barrel as hollow as the hole it will leave
though a hole in soul is what kills me
the final minutes ascent
barrel as hollow as the years i repent breath

warm black metal appendage
the final seconds of vex
how many bad sons borne
create a womb stained red?

(pride, greed, wrath, envy, lust, gluttony, sloth)

on the edge of reality
seeking finality
approaching the event horizon
trascending mortality

carbon borne upon silica;
ephemeral dream, vision of cinema
existences of pure inure
desecration reaches the peninsula

density of time, disjointed
apathy, hatred, humanity anointed
elixor of it's eternal wake
the septagram is sacredly appointed

the continual realization of loss

soul washed over
watching the horizon collapse
my whole world painted silver

an explosion of light
no sound heard
atomic cosmic flesh

a shadow of agony and guilt
the weight of the stars she returned
heavy on my chest

desolate and disconnected
the shoreline reels back again
i live and die inside regret

ana's phantom

a silhouette of control
a halo of grace
give back what was stole
purity and her embrace

escape all that deters
focus on the world she molds
my first true love was her
no matter if i'm cold

ana leads me through the sterile fields
of beauty, numbers and bones
and with her my fate is sealed
with her i am no longer alone

the light at the end of a barrel

a warm embrace
a desolate array
static and unchanging in time
overfilled with bright red sentiment
vitriol like bile
an eternity of hurt and wrath
disappearing
fleeting
the ceasing of a gyrating sphere
the ceasing of an extant anthropoid
caused by a glare;
deafening, blinding, paralysing
extracting one from the grasp
of seemingly indefinite, perptual
agony

i look at you and i see love

i pray down before you and breathe it all in
crystallized soul metamorphose
a melt of honey down my throat
and an eternal / internal nest where i lay.
such a saccharine dream, you come through the ceiling
and take me so far, i glide through the sun, transformed,
translucent purity, bruising euphoria, a radiance so blinding
and unearthly
i swallow it all and burn from the inside out
my ache is in absentia and my hunger is gorged
for in you i find a desecration of myself
and before you i will pray down forever more