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a means of escape, that space in between heaven and earth.
music means quite alot to me, it is truly the sweetest sound.
procede to fall between the cavity and daze..






black windows of paint
i scratched with my nails
i see others just like me
why do they not try to escape?
...
my whole existence is for your amusement
and that is why im here with you!




you'll be godlike..





theres not much left to love
too tired today to hate
i feel the empty
i feel the minute of decay
i'm on my way down now
i'd like to take you with me
...
i've been to black and back
i've whited out my name
a lack of pain, a lack of hope
a lack of anything to say
...
ive looked ahead and saw a world thats dead
i guess that i am too.





you violated a part of me again
and again, and again, and again, and again
and again, and again, and again, and again





sunspots cast a glare in my eyes
sometimes i forget i'm alive
i feel it coming and i've gotta get out of it's way
i hear it calling and i come cause i can't disobey
i should not listen and i shouldn't believe
but i do, yes i do..

now i just stare into the sun
and i see everything i've done
i think i could've been someone
but i can't stop what has begun
when everything's been said and done
and there is no place left to run
i think i used to be someone
now i just stare into the sun





i am forgiven, i am free
i am a field on fire

i can't tell if i am dreaming anymore




i spent the night walking home
i spent the last night dreaming
i spent the last night screaming

what do you eat?
i don't know
where do you stay?
i don't know
what do you mean?
i don't know
where do you go?
i don't know

its gonna kill me




just let me die with dignity
it's not suicide, simply mercy

life is killing me




this town don't feel mine
im fast to get away, far..

just far away and i don't care where
i dont care just where, far away..




sweet thing, i watch you
burn so fast it scares me

sweet thing, i watched you (burn away)




burn down the sun
i'm not everyone
high and dry
i'm nothing but a body in my mind

i feel that something ain't right
no fear but reasons that i can't cite

tear down the sun
bring down the sun
burn down the sun




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i know what's coming
i feel it's reaching through
there is no moving past
there is no better place
there is no future point in time..
we will not get away..

the world is bleeding out
it folds itself in two
behind the background world
its always bleeding through..




everything else is completely inane
profoundly profane, and it drives me insane!




take me down, six underground
the ground beneath your feet
...
i've got a head full of drought, down here
so far off losing out, round here
overground, watch this space
i'm open to falling from grace..

dont think cause i understand, i care
dont think cause i'm talking, we're friends




all your dreams are made
when you're chained to the mirror and the razor blade
today's the day that all the world will see
another sunny afternoon
walking to the sound of my favorite tune
tomorrow never knows what it doesn't know too soon..




an effigy so wondrous to behold
a statement so profound
a place to bury everything i did and burn it to the ground
the fire illuminates the final scene
the past repeats itself
i cannot tell the difference anymore
i cannot trust myself

i've got to let go, i've got to get straight
why'd you have to make it so hard?
let me get away
...
i think i could lose myself in here..




i can't explain you would not understand
this is not how i am
i have become comfortably numb
...
when i was a child
i caught a fleeting glimpse
out of the corner of my eye
i turned to look but it was gone
i cannot put my finger on it now
the child is grown
the dream is gone
i have become comfortably numb..




here comes that feeling again
down on my life again, and im joyless again
down on my love again
i feel empty again, and im feral again
good mourning sun




nothing is like i planned it
so funny, i can't stand it
wish i was made of granit
i must be on another planet

i've got to be direct
if i'm wrong please correct
you're standing on my neck
you're standing on my neck
you're standing on my neck




to the madness, i do confess
i never see myself as blessed
confused, unaddressed
like a saviour i do caress
the truth is boredom more or less
unused, obsessed

my time is only given up to you, too much to choose
it's not mine to contemplate if i can lose
with this blood on my shoes




it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me see the light

just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
of the trust i will betray
give it to me i throw it away
after everything i've done i hate myself for what i've become




what was she for halloween?
the ugliest girl you've ever seen
someday she will die alone

what was she for valentine's?
an old forgotten concubine
someday she will die for no one

spits at mirrors; it's not an issue
just remove the hateful tissues
we all know her rage is endless

someday she won't have to fake it
living will itself seem sacred
someday she will just refuse




see that retard girl staring at the sun
what does she see?
see the retard girl stare at everyone
i hope she doesn't see me




hey pig, nothing's turning out the way i planned
hey pig, there's a lot of things i hoped you could help me understand

what am i supposed to do? i lost my shit because of you
nothing can stop me now 'cause i don't care anymore
nothing can stop me now 'cause i don't care




i, i, i, will battle for the sun, sun, sun
and i, i, i won't stop until i'm done, done, done
you, you, you are getting in the way, way, way
and i, i, i have nothing left to say, say, say

i, i, i, i, i will brush off all the dirt dirt dirt dirt dirt dirt dirt
and i, i, i, i, i will pretend it didn't hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt
you, you, you, you, you are a black and heavy weight,
weight, weight, weight, weight, weight, weight
and i, i, i, i, i will not participate, pate, pate, pate, pate, pate, pate, pate

dream brother, my killer, my lover
dream brother, my killer, my lover




laid out on my back, i can't sleep cause i'm slumming
eyes in my teeth, i can't see cause i'm eating
head full of noise, i can't think 'cause it's crushing
back on my feet, like a freight train i'm coming

can everybody feel like i do?
can't you trip, can't you think, can't you feel like i do?
can't you walk, can't you breathe, can't you trip like i do?
can't you trip, can't you think, can't you feel like i do?

can't you walk, can't you breathe, can't you trip like me?




can't you feel it?
now that spring has come
that it's time to live in the scattered sun

waiting for you to come along
waiting for you to tell me what went wrong
this is the strangest life i've ever known..




can't escape this place, i deny your face
sweat gets in my eyes, i think i'm slowly dying
put me in a homemade cellar
put me in a hole for shelter
someone hear me please, all i see is hate
i can hardly breathe and i can hardly take it

i am in a buried kennel
i have never felt so final
someone find me please, losing all reserve
i'm fucking gone, i think i'm fucking dying

hands on my face overbearing i can't get out
hands on my face overbearing i can't..

you all stare, but you'll never see
there's something inside me
you all stare, but you'll never see
there's something in you i despise..

PURITY
PURITY
PURITY




don't waste your fucking time
let live, let go
don't waste your fucking time
let live, let go
don't waste your fucking time
let live, let go




your home is where you're happy
it's not where you're not free..
your home is where you can be what you are
cause you were just born to be

now they'll show you their castles
and diamonds for all to see
but they'll never show you that peace of mind
cause they don't know how to be free..

so burn all your bridges
leave your old life behind
you can do what you want to do
cause you're strong in your mind..




i'm sick of feeling so wrecked
and tired of this mess
there's going to be hell to pay
this time i swear
the best in me is draining out

i know i'd love to watch you perish
under the weight of what you siphon

i'm sick of feeling so wrecked
and tired of this mess
there's going to be hell to pay
this time i swear
all my life in doubt...

you suck the life from everything...
parasite of happiness in me



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